Lauren Lee

This just a short summary of why Lauren Lee truly is an individual with whom God blessed us by putting her on Earth. 

I met Lauren nearly five years ago during my junior year of high school.  From the time I first met Lauren I knew that I was in love and eventually we ended up falling for each other.  Not long after we began dating, my father committed suicide.  I knew that God had blessed me with Lauren because she became my primary outlet for my pain and suffering.  She held me in her arms many times and dried the tears from my eyes.  The whole irony of this is that she had lost her father just three weeks earlier. 

Together we suffered but together we also flourished. Without each other we may not have made it through those hard times.  However, as the relationship progressed and we moved from our hometown, a certain evil began to grip my soul and turn me down the wrong path.  As we entered college I began to fall under the control of alcohol.  At first it wasn’t a big deal; thats just what college students do, right?  But then things began to go downhill.  I was missing work, failing my classes, and even neglecting our relationship.  Lauren began to take notice of this and addressed the problem, recognizing that alcoholism runs in my family and that I am especially prone to it. 

At first I didn’t think much of it but eventually I knew something needed to be done.  Although I wanted and knew I needed to change, it proved to be much more difficult that I had imagined.  I would tell myself that I could go out and only have two or three drinks but it would always turn into quite a bit more.  I was only disappointing myself and the love of my life.  Matters were becoming desperate and I knew that I had do something for not only myself, but Lauren.  She became extremely concerned with my drinking and every time I drank too much, she always fell a little further. 

Eventually I decided that the only way I could accomplish my soberness would be to move to Southern Alabama with my parents.  I had always been extremely close to my mother and knew that with her by my side and the absense of the temptations I had in Kentucky, I could accomplish my goal.  I have now been down here in Alabama for about eight months and my lifestyle has totally changed for the better.  I hardly ever drink, but when I do I now have the ability to control how many drinks I have.  I can go out and have two drinks and call it a night now.  It is such a good feeling to be successful in this battle.  I am making good grades in school, going to work consistently, and am able to be active in a social setting without having to drink.  And I know that all of this wouldn’t have been possible without the concern and encouragement of Lauren Lee. 

The heartbreak of the whole situation is the fact that I had hurt her so much by letting her down that once I moved down here, she decided that she could no longer put up with the worry and disappointment that I had put her through.  She left me in June of 2006 and my heart has been broken ever since.  I miss her each and every day and just pray that someday she will come back to me.  But despite this, I must thank her from the bottom of my heart for giving me the encouragement and motive to quit drinking.  Without her, I may have very well ended up on the same path as my father and his family.  I could have wasted my life away and never been able to let go of the bottle.  I know that God blessed me when he brought her into my life and I just want to thank both Him and her for getting me through this crisis.  I still love her and just hope for her return someday.  She truly is a wonderful person with the heart and soul of an angel.